I have never beent the brightest person at school, never the child to recieve A grades in everything, but i've never been expected to fail anything either.

This whole third year uni shit... in my first year there were 130 student nurses, there are only 63 remaning. yes im pleased im one of them, but i cannot do the work.

I have a presentation next wednesday...which im feeling ok about, the 2 girls im working with are hard workers and we're practically finished and just waiting to get it over and done with. This presentation is supposed to help us write our assignment, but when i have sat down and started to write a plan so i know which direction im going in, i cant seem to get my head around it. (Yes, i have been to see my tutor about it, much help that was). I cant seem to want to sit down and get stuck in, i ususally get that feeling with every other essay...that i want to do it, the sooner i get cracking, the easier it will be because we arent on placement and all the information is still pretty fresh in my mind and it means my workload wont build up...but it hasnt happened with this one yet.

I dont know whether to just keep putting it off until i get that 'i want to get it done' feeling, or whether to drag myself into uni, find my tutor again, maybe another one as well (for a second opinion!) and sit with my friends and try and think up at least a detailed plan so i know where to head.

I DONT KNOW!!! im trying, but im not producing anything, so it doesnt look as though im trying at all.

I cannot screw up this year and im certainly feeling the pressure. Im sure, as a very very close Mancunion friend of mine says 'it be reet!'

hope all is well with friends back home, and who ever else decideds to scroll their eyes over this! x