Ok, so if you've read my previous entry, you will understand when i say the person close to my heart will be moving to Cambridge in April to begin their PhD.

I am so pleased and proud for them its untrue, but the heartache i've felt from the moment they told me they were going is indescribable. I cry almost everynight dreading the day we have to say good bye and having to face the rest of my time at uni without them, no one to hug and cuddle anymore, no one to share my life with in that way. I cannot put into words how much i will miss them, i feel sick thinking about it, tears are in my eyes as im typing this.... I love them, i really really love them, and i have to get used to the fact that im not going to be with them...i only have 10 weeks left with them, 10 weeks is nothing and i cant prepare myself for the heartache thats going to take over me.

I would do anything to pretend its not happening, but that isnt going to help me...i just have to appreciate the time i have with him between now and then and be grateful of the relationship i have.

I know you hardly ever read this, but just in case you do, know that i love you and however hard its going to be, you are worth it.